Long time no post

Waa... i havent posted in ages. I was thinking about canceling my account but... I don't know...

I need a new job. One of my collegues is leaving to become a lecturer and it made me realise I realled wanted to persue my career a bit more. I only really took this job so i could get some experence to put on my c.v. but I've done that now. Its scary the "real world", but then I wouldn't have it any less real.

Went to town Friday and Saturday. Got a little bit drunk on Friday and was dancing like a maniac. I met a great girl, Sarah. It was weird I wasn't attracted to her but I realised what my life would be like if I was straight. I had a rapor with this girl and I kept her interested with stories and jokes. We danced and I was having a great time. As far as I could tell she was having a good time too. Then I saw two of my mates (straight lads) were getting off with the girls they had been dancing with and it made me realise that I could have quite easily have kissed this girl and then taken her home as my friends were doing. I actually felt a bit sorry for Sarah that I wasn't going to. I mean dont get me wrong she knew I was gay but I definatly got the feeling from the way we were dancing that she was definatly in to me. I toned down the dancing after that and we went and stood by the side. We then had a laugh rating all the cute guys. She then left and I went back to Paul's for a few drinks and to watch dvds.